Hi people. Im awake again and im gonna start ranting on & on about how much i miss marcus. Afterall, after my brk up with him, i dont really have anyone else to turn to becos he was the one who always listens to my problems and comforts me. Hais. So if you pple are lazy to read all the fucking things i`ve wrote, you`ve got 2 options. 1. Close your eyes, 2. Move your fucking mouse to the right hand corner of the screen and click the 'x'.

I was reading this horoscope thingy and i read about my horoscope and his. Somehow, it is quite true. Lemme show you what it says..

TAURUS: The Tramp
Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long
relationships.=] Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely
outgoing. Sexy as ........ Loves to help people in times of need.
Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as
........Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to #### with. Are the most sexiest people on earth!

GEMINI:. Does Twosomes
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed. Lover not
a fighter, but will still knock you the #### out. Trustworthy. Always
happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a
beautiful smile.. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE.

All those in bold is what is true about me and what i think is true about him. Im a taurus and he`s a gemini. Im really stubborn as in that i know he have hurt me repeatedly but yet, i still wanna hold on, i still wanna give him yet another chance. All i need to know from him is that he is sorry and i`ll be okay with it and put the past behind me. I am not letting go bcos i like to give a good fight for what i want. Im not letting him go so easily. I really dont understand why he would choose someone else over me. Hais.. For marcus, i`ve bolded the 'Does twosome' words is not because he literally does it but its bcos he can NEVER stay loyal to a single r/s. He`ll need 2 ! He is always happy bcos after all has happened, he can still get on with his life and he still looks happy to me. He is irresistable bcos his sweet mouth and looks will attract all the girls like how honey attracts bees. Hais..

I know that life will still go on w/o him, night will still turn to day and day will turn to night but no one will know how lifeless i am now w/o marcus in my life. When he came into my life, he brought colours into my dull life, now that he has left, he took all the colours out and left me all alone in my black & white life. Hais. Seriously, i wonder if he has already forgotten our love, forgotten me? I wonder if he`ll ever regret breaking off with me in the future? I wonder if one fine day, if i bang into him on the streets holding another girl`s hand, what would my reaction be? Or if one fine day, marcus bangs into me on the streets holding another boy`s hand, what would his reaction be? Any answers for me anyone?

My heart is so so frozen now. I dont know why so many guys, knowing tht im single, wanna come and cheat my feelings again. Ever since marcus left me, my heart has frozen. All i feel is just heartaches after heartaches. They never seem to go away. I cant fall in love with another guy so easily, and i really wonder how he can fall in love with another girl so easily? I wonder if he backstabs me infront of his girl now? Argh, fuck it. Im gonna be a fucking heartless bitch now. Im not gonna care if im gonna hurt anyone but thats what im gonna be. I might be piercing my lips soon but i`ll see how it goes. Den maybe after my lips,i`ll pierce my tongue or smth. I am really numb, numb to EVERYTHING !

I shall update again tonight and see how much money ive received. When i was with marcus, money didnt matter to me but now? MY LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MONEY! I`ll do anything to get money, illegal or not. I DONT FUCKING CARE! SAMMIE LOVES MONEY! ANYONE GOT ANY LOBANGS TO GET QUICK AND EASY MONEY? I WANNA GO FOR LASER TREATMENT TO REMOVE MY DAMN DARK EYE RINGS AND BAGS! >;(

Ok. im officially crazy now. Bye bye